Sunday, September 20, 2009

Been a long time

It lost the thrill long ago. All the troubles with blown up motor drivers and mysterious bugs have been worked out. The mysteries of error analysis and rotational translations have been solved, and over 6,000 lines of finished C code have come together into a heliostat.

Been a long time since I rock and rolled
Been a long time since I took that stroll

Days, weeks, and months have gone by while I've toiled away 7 days a week in total isolation except for an occasional trip to the grocery store. Staying up till 3 or 4 am, getting up at 9:00. Soldering and routing hundreds of little connections, trying not to hook up anything backwards, and occasionally succeeding.

Been a long time since I spoke of love
Can't take the tears of a life with no love

And the final challenge is the biggest: to get rid of the anger and sadness that comes from having my faith in people reduced to ashes. I don't like other people, and I don't like myself. It seems that humans, though arguable the most advanced of the millions of life forms on the planet, are the lowest form of life with the ability to worship God. In fact most people aren't even at this level, and most of those that think they are worshiping God are just trying to reverse the roles and have God satisfy their own selfish material desires.

Been a long time
Been a long time
Been a long...
Lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely time.

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